As a planner, I am often frustrated by not knowing what God’s plan is for my life. I want to be given a checklist on how to accomplish everything for which God has created me. I want God to reveal to me His desire for my life so I can finally start living a fulfilling life that uses my gifts and talents. My patience is tested whenever these prayers aren’t clearly answered.
In 1 Corinthians 13, Paul captures the tension between living a life on earth that brings glory to God’s Kingdom while yearning for the Kingdom to be present. It is a ‘not-yet-but-soon’ feeling. In verse 12, Paul says this, “For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.” This is exactly where I spent my time, in the place of ‘not-yet-but-soon’. I long for my glass to be transparent and clear but it isn’t. I can’t know everything God has planned for my future. For now, I must prayerfully pierce through my murky glass grasping on to the hope that when I seek God and trust Him with my future, some of the muddiness will clear away to knowledge.