I’ve had a lot of change in my life. Some of it caused by my own decisions, some of it not. Sometimes I wonder if I thrive in the change because it’s really what I”m used to. Setting roots is not something I know how to do because my heart is always pulled towards a bigger, unexplored world. I’ve been told I’m like a balloon fluttering in the wind but, at the same time, anchored. It’s an odd feeling: wanting to go, to move, to change, to do but also being tied to the here and now.
The rope has been loosened and I can finally take steps to following my heart overseas. ..even if the first one seems to be a step backwards.
June 5th I’m moving back home; a place I haven’t been in almost 10 years. I’m reminding myself this will be a year of opening myself to letting God work in every area of my life in a way that hasn’t been possible before. I’m reminding myself that a strong foundation is essential to moving forward. I’m reminding myself God has a purpose in everything. But mostly, I’m excited to see what this next year brings. It will be a year of fundraising, building and restoring relationships, trusting God is bigger ways than ever before, and preparation for moving forward, across the Atlantic.
I’ve been accepted as a long-term missionary with OC International, an organization dedicated to leadership training, mentoring, discipleship, and supporting healthy churches. After my summer in South Africa last year, I’ve been prayerfully pursuing opportunities to join the mission field. I took months to research, vet, and find the organization that was the best fit for my gifts, passions, and how I see God moving in this world. From the time I started this process, God’s hand has been guiding me. He has shown up in more ways than I can say- even when I doubted, even when I had surprises, and even when I laid down my dreams at His feet.
So, I’m moving home for a year. In September, I’m visiting the OCI team in South Africa to ensure we are a good fit for each other. My heart is in South Africa and as much as I want to end up there, I, above all, want to be obeying God’s will. While the plan is set: I am fundraising to be a missionary, I have joined a missions organization, I want to start serving as soon as possible- I’m still waiting for details. Details of where exactly I’ll be if not South Africa, what exactly I’ll be doing, and when exactly I’ll be moving. My time in South Africa in September will answer these questions, for now I’m stepping out in faith, loosening the rope marked ‘control’ which tethers my balloon, and rejoicing that God is not done with me yet; His plan for me is just starting.