I’ve been submerging myself in Proverbs lately in order to gain some much-needed wisdom. My heart kept catching at different verses about different things, but a theme caught my eye. It’s a theme that has lent to me rediscovering myself; a theme that has allowed me to shed my burdens and dance in freedom. It’s a theme I had head-known but it had not quite made its way into my heart…until recently.
‘Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.’ – Proverbs 3:5-6
‘The heart of a man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps’ – Proverbs 16:9
‘A man’s steps are directed by the LORD. How then can anyone understand his own way?’ – Proverbs 20:24
As a take charge, type A, likes-to-be-in-control person, I thought I had to make all the plans myself once I heard the call. I thought it was up to me to figure out how to make it work since He was good enough to tell me the end goal. I saw it as a sort of test to see if I was dedicated enough, bold enough, smart enough, or just plain enough to get there.
And the worst part…I didn’t even realize I had been thinking like that!
If you’ve been around here for a while, you’d know that I don’t ask for help very easily and my self-sufficiency gets the best of me more often than not. So, I shouldn’t have been surprised that my default setting of putting the burden of figuring out the ‘how’ of my calling now that I have the ‘what’ isn’t how it’s supposed to be at all. (One day, I’ll remember that!)
So, when I read those verses my heart caught- it was the water in the scorched desert she had been searching, longing for. She made me stop and drink deeply from the truths of these verses.
It is not up to me.
It is NOT up to me.
It is not UP to me.
It is not up to ME.
I’m along for the ride. He is guiding my steps, my path, my future. He knows how it is going to work out, what it will look like, and when it will happen. I’m not in control nor am I expected to be in control. I just have to obey His voice and trust in His time. I don’t have to figure it all out because my God has already done all the leg work to get me to where He wants me in His perfect timing.
Do you know how freeing that is?!
I knew God had a purpose for my life and I knew He’d reveal it to me when I was ready. I had just
completely missed forgotten that He is in the details too. My heart finally understands that and she is rejoicing in the weight that has been taken from her.
So, tell me, how has God been revealing Himself to you lately?