I haven’t really felt like me for a while now. I’ve had my life turned up-side-down a few too many times in the last year and a half. I had started to unconsciously believe living in the midst of frustrating unknowns was all there was for me. And, don’t get me wrong, there are still plenty of unknowns in my life right now, but I know there is something for me now and that gives me hope. I hadn’t realized how much hope I had really lost until it came back to me. I’m climbing out of this dark, suffocating box I put my life into and stepping out in faith to the green pastures I see before me. I feel life coming back to my heart-beating joy and excitement through my shriveled body.
And I can’t tell you how good it feels to be joyful again. I can’t tell you how good it is to make jokes, laugh easily, and be light-hearted.
All I can say is… I’m back!