Lisa-Jo over at The Gypsy Mama gives a prompt every Friday for a five-minute-free-write. I haven’t done it before, but decided this topic was too good to pass up…
So here goes, 5 minutes of writing my unedited thoughts…
When I look in the mirror I see the details of who I am. I see the scar on my forehead from when I had the chicken pox. I see the eyebrows that animate my face as I tell stories. I see the eyes that have brought so many conversations to my life, and earned me my Sesotho name, Buhle.
BUt a small part of me wonders: am I really seen? Do people really see me? Or to them am I just the big picture? The overall characteristics without knowing the heart, the details behind what they see. I wonder how I can change the perception that is seen so that He is seen through me.
Because I want people to see His light and His life when they look at me.
So there I stand, critiquing what I don’t like, taking in what I do, with bigger questions on my mind.
I see a girl struggling to embrace womanhood. I see a big dreamer hiding being perfectionist fears. I see a hopeful heart through cautious eyes. I see a stronger woman looking back at me than I ever thought could be.
And yet, that question still nags in the back of my mind: am I really seen? Do I ALLOW myself to be seen?
So, now, let me ask you. What do you see when you look in the mirror?