I’m back. Back to blogging. Back to an outlet I cherish so much. No, I wasn’t on vacation this past week (although that would have been lovely). Work took up more of my life than it normally does. I changed projects and have not yet gotten a computer. At my old project, I would blog in the morning right after I ate breakfast and before I checked work email. It was my routine to start my day focused on what is important to me- my heart and my relationship with God. Since changing projects, I haven’t been able to keep that routine. Honestly, I was (and still kind of am) at a loss of how to keep up this blog and it’s readership. I can’t promote my posts on twitter or facebook during the day like before. But I’ve slowly come to realize that this blog is for me- for me to reveal my heart and acknowledge it’s influence in my life. It’s a place for me to process lessons God is teaching me. It is a place for you all to (hopefully) learn more about me than you might otherwise in day-to-day interactions. It’s a place for you to know that you aren’t alone in your struggles with God.
It is NOT about how many people read my blog. It is not for me to see how popular I am. It is not a fan club. It is not a place I have to write on 5 days a week like I was.
So, with this new understanding, I come back to blogging. I want each post to have quality. I don’t want to post just to keep up the pace at which I was going just because I felt like I should. I want each post to add richness to my relationship with Him. I want this to be a place of authenticity. And, if I am most honest, I don’t have golden nuggets five, four, or even three days a week. It’s time to find a balance between having this blog motivate me to pursue God and search my heart while also allowing time to process what I’m learning. That is more authentic than posting five times a week in order to promote this blog…this outlet.