How many times have I run from God and then blamed Him for not showing up? How many times have I actually waited on the Lord and praised Him when He did show up? Unfortunately, I think the times I’ve run far outnumber the times I’ve waited. When the Lord finally shows up (and I realize it), I’m angry that He did not do what I wanted; I’m frustrated that it took Him so long, and if I was most honest, I only realize He showed up when I look back days weeks months years later. Why do I do that? Lack of trust? Maybe. How long am I going to use that as my excuse?
Soften my heart, O God, and knead out the hurt. Give me a new song- a song of rejoicing, a song of courage, and a song of hope.
‘Blessed are you who give yourselves over to God, turn your backs on the world’s “sure thing,” ignore what the world worships’ – Psalm 40: 4-5 The Message.
Despite my own flaws and doubts, I am starting to see how You are always there- that You are the most dependable Person. You have always guided me to where I need to be. You have always set me on a place to find my footing after I stumble. The slimy rock of the world has always failed me. Thank You for the solid ground. Ground which brings me back to You because the slimy rock always takes me away…or rather I let it take me away.
‘Your love and truth are all that keeps me together.’ – Psalm 40: 11 – 12 The Message
My broken-ness needs Your love and trust as superglue. Shower me with these. Drown me in them so I may spew them out at others. Let these showers bring fruit of the Spirit so You are seen through me. Let me only seek Your love and Your truth so I may know You better.
‘And me? I’m a mess. I’m nothing and have nothing: make something of me. You can do it; you’ve got what it takes— but God, don’t put it off.‘ – Psalm 40: 16 – 27 The Message.